semester break

I gotta start working on my final year project thesis but I still procrastinating. May be in my mind I always think there is pretty time for me to complete it. yeah I know it. However, if I keep doing this I'm sure that I will regret in the future.Not to call future but very soon I will get myself into hardship. I am undergraduate and currently pursuing my degree in local private university. After this short break I will fight for my very last semester in uni. should I appreciate and really enjoy my uni life? I know I will go through it once in my life and never take two. I hope that I can faster graduate. of course there must be a reason behind it, I want to make sure being exempted from ptptn repayment. the loan cost me a lot and if I get the good result I do not need to clear the debt when I enter work place. anyway all the best to myself I will try my best to get what I wish to obtain and gain. Never ever fail myself. Keep moving!

Gambateh

guilty

I feel guilty because I didn't fully utilized my time on my studying. Insteed, I wasted a lot of time in thinking those meaningless matter. I should focus on final and cannot let others small matter to distract my attention. Well it is already midnight and it is time to get into bed. I promise to myself I will really stduy tomorrow, again I'm not going to online tomorrow. Only three days left for me. Must believe that you can do it~ Gambateh~

Back~

Already went back after some time. :D
I had a weird feeling and very complicated. I can't bear mum's nagging and I used to stay in a quiet environment.
wondering what will happen after graduation...

The day B4 go back to my hometown

I'm supposed to study for tomorrow's midterm right now. However, I'm not in a studying mood instead, I'm in the mood to go back home. Yeah I know I should get back to reality after all. May be It has been a while for me to stay at kampar at least for this short semester. I refused to go back every week although I have enough time to travel between. Compare to my friend all were rushing up for their fyp, am I consider the lucky one? I don't know because I always worry and struggling in how to start the thesis writing, too many uncertainties in front of me and I used to stay at the same place and refused to move on. This is my weakness and I took too much time in over thinking a small matter. I should get rid of this yet I stayed at the original place now. well stop my nagging and go back to my study. Last revise for tomorrow's midterm.
~GAMBATEH~

1/12/2011

新的一个月份的到来，是否意味着新的开始，什么都有转机呢？我不晓得，可我衷心地希望一切会变得更好。所有的劣性请你远离我，我要控制我自己，而不是由你们来主导我的未来。加油！

29/11/2011

不懂晃了多少天。我呆在所谓的宿舍里，整整有三天了，没出门买东西吃，吃的也只是现成的饼干、豆粉等INSTANT食物。不会特地为了食物而出门，我日夜颠倒地过日子。过度地放纵自己，不按照原来的路线走，我想：我是累了、倦了还是有太多的时间搞些乱七八糟的事情。说实话，如果放纵算是一种休息，那休息过后，我有着深深的愧疚感，我还是当初的那个我吗。我周遭的朋友，我是他们眼中的我吗。或许，我努力地伪装自己，想维护自己在他人眼里的形象，可这毕竟太累人了。偶尔，我也需要解压，这时候，我不喜欢别人的打扰，就让我静静地沉醉在那属于我的世界里。或许那过于梦幻没点实际，可我真的希望摆脱那纠缠着我不放的名与利。世人为了名利二字，追逐了大半生，而我也在其中，不能侥幸逃离。
休息时可以，但休息过后，请你拿出你的坚持、勇气继续走下去。别再为自己找再多的借口了，因为那只是借口。再多的借口，也只是为了抚慰你那害怕、愧疚的心理。
好了，是时候开始振作了！加油 ^___^

28/11/2011

窃探 我喜欢知道人的内心世界
有时候 我在想 这是否算是一种病态
我会尽全力去探索你们内心的世界
有时候 知道了 反而觉得距离远了
套用一句话
没有得到的 总是以为是最好的
得到了 却发觉没想像中来的好
这 矛盾的心态 你我皆有
怎么改
算了 做了那么多无用的东西
这几天
我该回到正常的馗道了

时间不等人 :D 现在是凌晨215am
晚安啦